I planned some time alone at the end summer to write and reflect.
Spending time alone is beautiful concept that I rarely experience and often romanticize.
When I arrived at our island cottage, it seemed extra quiet without the usual buzz of family & friends.
I proceeded to make myself busy, doing all the things that cottage owners do.
An odd feeling of loneliness crept in right away.
Odd considering how much I had looked forward to this and was accustomed to it (in the past).
I was plagued with thoughts of guilt, not doing enough, not being enough, missing kids, responsibilities and what ‘they’ will think? What the f&ck are you doing this for?
My mindfulness practice set in motion a shift of awareness into the sensations in the body.
I noticed my thoughts from a higher perspective, without judgement, coming and going.
I removed my shoes and connected to the earth, dipped in the water and breathed in the air.
In coherence with natures perfect frequency to center the soul to wholeness.
I became aware of the unconscious program and reclaimed my awareness of intention.
We all have freewill to direct our attention to where we choose – I stopped doing and started being.
And then I saw the truth. I could see my shadows and face them, greeting them with awareness.
Without fear. I know who I am in truth. I know what I am in truth. I know who I serve in truth.
Letting go allows peace, love and creativity to arise and flow. Truth.
Create space to be alone – have the courage to shine light inward and remember who you are and what matters most.